my beginnings*

The above image is a representation of one of my many beginnings a few years back. It was such an interesting time for me. I was at a job that I knew I wanted to leave to pursue more creative endeavors, but I didn't know how to make it happen. I was doing some coaching work with this superhero and at her suggestion, I started making a collage every other day before work as a demonstration towards the life I was envisioning. The image above is a mosaic of some of my work that I created during that time. I was encouraged to get my work out there and booked two shows. Eventually, an opportunity came up for me to leave my job! In a way that that worked for me financially and that allowed for me to explore other ideas. It has been one of the most trying AND amazing times of my life. I really have no idea how this was all made possible, but I absolutely believe in rituals and demonstrations that speak to dreams and possibilities. And this is such a good time of year to be visioning and thinking about what to invite into your life for 2009! Cheers to that!

There is a wonderful winter storm going on in Minneapolis today. I love the feeling of being "snowed in" - I am a hermit by nature. Yesterday I came across a photo of my mom when she was little visiting Santa - so sweet. Now that my semester is over I am focused on the Holiday and of course moving. I am so grateful to have this time in my home and really be present, I am not thinking as much about how my life is going to be in Charlotte.

We are very fortunate that a moving company is going to pack and move our things for us. In past moves I have felt rushed and just thrown everything together in boxes. Knowing that I don't have to pack it all has taken so much pressure off and allowed the space for me to organize and sift through my things. There are many treasures to appreciate and also there are many things that we are not bringing with us. It feels like we are shedding some things to allow the space for the new. This move is such a big emotional deal for me (of course it is for anyone) and I find that clearing and passing things on is also allowing the space to clear out some unwanted emotional gremlins as well. For today, I am grateful for the opportunity to clear out, stretch and grow.

{yes}

I have been thinking and carefully examining what I what I say yes to these days. The idea of moving from my home and what I know has been REALLY hard this week. After letting myself just with my "stuff" for a while, I am now trying to open myself up to this new journey that is ahead of me. And the best way I know for me to demonstrate that is with collaging!

these are the words for me today

I want to live where soul meets body
And let the sun wrap its arms around me
And bathe my skin in water cool and cleansing
And feel, feel what its like to be new

Cause in my head there’s a greyhound station
Where I send my thoughts to far off destinations
So they may have a chance of finding a place
where they’re far more suited than here

I cannot guess what we'll discover
We turn the dirt with our palms cupped like shovels
But I know our filthy hands can wash one another’s
And not one speck will remain

I do believe it’s true
That there are roads left in both of our shoes
But if the silence takes you
Then I hope it takes me too
So brown eyes I hold you near
Cause you’re the only song I want to hear
A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

from "Soul Meets Body" by Death Cab for Cutie